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so about a year ago i decided to remove lily seed from circulation. it was part of the racial justice bundle, and i started panicking about all the notice and attention and occasionally money i was receiving from being a part of it. it wasn't supposed to be for me, it was for people who needed it. i felt like i was gaining off the backs of others in a way i wasn't comfortable with. (ftr i'm not mad or anything with the people who followed me or sent me money for lily seed. i appreciate you giving me that support. more on that later btw)

the only thing i could do was negate myself, make myself smaller. so i did. i removed lily seed so as to be a good and supportive ally. after a year, and learning more, i've realized that was dumb and unnecessary and unhelpful for everyone. helping requires positive action, not negative action. self-destruction and resignation is an act of cowardice. i'm sorry for taking that route. 

also, this past week i discovered i'm a big dumb: i got so many reviews and so much feedback from you all. i didn't notice, i figured itch would notify me if i got a review so i could see it. turns out it doesn't, and i missed out on years of support on my games, all of them, even going back past the bundle stuff. ...i genuinely thought no one cared. for years. I'm sorry for not noticing and not believing in the people who supported me. 

so with that, happy creator's day. play my games, play other people's games, expand your world and connect with people. we all deserve better in this world, and i hope my dumb little games can help make things a tiny bit better for everyone, including myself.

fun fact: lily seed is still my favorite thing i've made so far. i'll work to surpass it.